"Life is
Only as good as the memories we make
And I'm taking back what belongs to me
Polaroids of classrooms unattended
These relics of remembrance
Are just like shipwrecks
Only they're gone faster
Than the smell after it rains

So long Astoria
I found a map to buried treasure;
And even if we come home empty handed
We'll still have our stories
Of battle scars, pirate ships and wounded hearts,
Broken bones, and all the best of friendships.

And when this hourglass
Has filtered out its final grain of sand
I raise my glass to the memories we had
This is my wish
This is my wish
I'm taking them back
I'm taking them all back."
-So Long Astoria

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I've nothing much to say.
Very unhyper, I'm sorry; this isn't a very good mood for blogging.
But maybe I'll be able to form a coherent sentence this time around.

...It feels weird.
It feels like- oh, I dunno- like something's happened and everything's kind of gone all woozy and blurry on me. Like; I keep thinking of picking up the phone and calling Cheryl, or wondering if she's going to call me for our almost-daily evening phonegossip session; but somehow, something stops me from picking up that receiver.
And I'll admit it- I feel awkward! I'm afraid that I won't know what to say, and yaddayadda.

Nothing's changed. But in a way, everything has.

AAH. Cara, stop this.

[deepbreaths, deeeeeeppppbbbrrreeeaaatthhhsss.]

Anyway. Today hasn't been a particularly nice day. Even though it rained.
Ordinarily I would adore rain, but this time I didn't.
[Because I got caught in it and I didn't have a brollie.]
Also. Carbohydrates have been calling out my naymmmme. Can you hear them calling? Can you? Can you?
...My sole comfort in all this mayhem is the Star Cruise we've had scheduled. Because they have a gym. And they serve six meals a day. :]

[Ahem. And Cheryl- you are so gonna lose your bet about the whole getting a guy thing. Just you wait, missehh.]

If, in the event that Cheryl DOES win her bet [that I'll get some weird guy in the hols] [but Cheryl, it'll have to be TWO-SIDED, love.] [Or else it wouldn't be fair.] , I swear I will come back to MG with a big box of Ferrero Rocher for y'peeps.
BUT in the event that she LOSES the bet [which she probably will, mark my words]; SHE will have to buy ME chocolate.

Only she doesn't have to buy me the whole big box.
[Because I'm nice that way.]

OHANDAND~!
I think I'll try my knack at writing something for 2G. Nuffink too complicated. My brains are shizzled.
But I will try.
[But it'll probably turn out reaaaaally cheesy, knowing me. So forgive me!]

I'm not going to spoil this otherwise already pretty-spoiled post by inserting some random emocity here.

But I'll have you know that I miss you guys already.

And I'll update when I

get a job
get in shape
get inspiration

can.

<3


"Piglet: We'll be friends forever, won't we?
Pooh: ...Forever."
-Winnie The Pooh

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Another year has come and gone, and I still can't believe that I'll be leaving you guys. It has yet to sink in, and once it does I might go into major meltdown mode.

Dear 2Gians,
I owe you all a big THANK YOU.

Thank you- so much- for letting me run this race with you. It means that much to me; and I will always carry memories of each and every one of you. Tis probably the craziest moments we had together that I'll remember- and those often make the best memories of all. <3
...Our time together has been one long marathon. Next year, most of you will step up and continue running that race; and on the other hand, the time has come for some of us to gracefully step out of the race and move to a different track.
But we won't stop running. Oh, no. Because every one of us is going to take away a little piece of everyone else; every 2Gian is going to get a little piece of all the wonderful, wonderful times that we had together.

And that little piece will be enough.


But thank you, thank you for being such angels, all this time. You've made me feel like I really don't need to change a single thing about me- because y'all have loved me as ME, all along. You make me feel beautiful.
And in my eyes, all of you are gorgeously, dropdeadly beautiful too. <3

...My dear, dear, 2Gians.
For everything you've done for me, and all the love you've shown me...I thank you. Thank you for helping me through my respective phases. [I know. I'm a very phasey person, more's the pity.] I've lost count of all the random phases that I've gone through- and it never fails to amaze me that YOU GUYS STUCK WITH ME.
Because if I were me and I met myself, I'd get puhretty teed off at myself sometimes, I think.
[But one Cara's enough for the world to handle, doncha think?]
But hey. You guys put up with it. I will never forget all the concern you showed me. Never, never, never!

For the next few weeks [months, even, p'raps]; most of us will go into cold-turkey. Prepare yourselves for an onslaught of emo "I MISS 2G!" MSN screennames, late night calling-each-other-and-crying-our-hearts-out deals, and random and startling outbursts of tears [probably on Audd and Jia Ni's part] when watching High School Musical. [for the 12334454545789th time.]

But y'know what?

We'll all get through this together.

Because it isn't about forgetting each other and moving on.
It's about making our memories part of us, and carrying each other on, in every person's own special way.

And yeah, it'll hurt. I don't deny that it'll hurt, because it WILL.
But gradually, the pain will ease. It'll always be there- but a day will come when it becomes part of us. And then it won't hurt so much any longer.

Remember.

I LOVE YOU ALL MUCHLY.

[Yes, you!]

And I always, always will.